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| This is all I'm going to say....
....my best friend's aunt and her fiance were taken away by a ruthless killer. A hit and run. He was able to escape his fiery pickup trunk, but did not think for a second about the other two he rammed into. What good is a world if it's full of bad and worthless people? Whoever he was, a coward, was able to walk away with life. The good wasn't. He didn't even call...
I'm not one to say things happen for a fucking reason. I gave that up long ago. Don't ask why. I believe cause and chances. They had a chance. Cause. Whatever the driver was doing or possibly drunk hit them. Exploded on impact, but this dude is fine, and running.
That is not fair.
Please give your thoughts, prayers to Rel.
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| ...it's a-freakin-nother! Earlier this week....my laptop crashed there go my instant access to the world wide web. I mean, yea we have a desktop at home, but it is under parental watch cause my 4yr older than me brother cannot get enough of porn where i twill crash thi shit. If he knows that I remember my password on that damn thing (which I do, I'm playing dumb) then he will bug the fuck outta me to use it...and no he cannot! He already asked me when I got back home earlier this summer if he could use that password...and he took it upon his liberty to try and figure out from my password hint: "Who is the dark knight?" Okay it's Batman, but I didn't put that as my password. HA! He doesn't even know who the dark knight is anyways. So, if he figures it out, he gonna get mad cause ..... the password isn't even in english..............
So...this is why I've been out of contact (like it really mattered that much)...don't have any drunk stories for you either, or any adventures, or gossip...etc! Right now I'm tying to figure out what to do without my laptop...re-read my Bleach manga collection up to the latest book (again!) .....do my hw (boring-- I hate math anyways. English is just getting on my nerves and glad friday is thee last day) .....what else to do?.....NADA...ZILCH. Just wake up...take my bc and watch Young & the Restless...but nothin on that's awesome after that lol. Ugh....it's just not the same without my laptop, and now I have to be super-supremely-careful with my ipod since that's my only "backup" with my music. If that goes then I might as well commit suicide...I need my music lol.
Other than that I'm ready to leave this joint, and go back to TX again.....
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| I'm reporting this to you live! Not really 15min delay in time cause of what happened, and I was in tuned and part of what was going on. Remember how it's not guilty till proven guilty. My brother got caught red handed [I played a part...whoops].
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Let's just start with when I came home from MS in the evening, and after I settled myself back into my room, and cussing my brother out about going in my room when he could play the ps2, which I had out in the main area with the big tv [dumbass]. That pissed me cause I bet his ass was looking for somethin and he left cake in the room and ants were in there. Which...pissed me off beyond pissed..then I went in the bathroom and there's toothpaste all up and down the sink. I made his ass clean it. I clean my half of the apartment before I left and I come back and it looks like shit?! Hell no. So after that I desantitized everything I went back out and saw pat with a cell phone, and I tried to snatch it cause I was like this nigga got a prepaid phone lol, I couldn't get my hands on it, and I didn't think nothing of it.
fast forward
Today after I got my hair done, I'm sittin with mom [she's on vacation], then we started planning out Saturday for Chicago, and she remembered that she's gonna need her business phone. She keeps it off 90% of the time since it's strictly for business, and she leaves it here in her on the dvd player. So, she's looking for it and I'm like 'woman mom, you sure you didn't leave it in one of your 10,000 handbags you have?' she was like 'no, i have no reason to keep it on me when I only use it when I'm away'. I'm just sitting there just watching tv when my mind went hay wire! When mom was in her room Pat was using a phone, and then I got that sickening feeling. Like the one when it's your first plane ride, and you sit way in the back...yea that feeling. So, I just sat there trying to remember if the phone Pat is using the one is my mom's business one. I got my chance to figure it out.
He offered to check my mom's jeep for the phone, and I watched him from my window for a few seconds [he can't see me, my curtains may be thin, but they gold gossimer thing going on so when it's daytime outside you can't see in]. I'm watching or a few seconds then I went back to mom's side, and was like 'uh mom, does pat have a cell phone?' she was like 'no why?' ...'i saw him using a cell phone earlier this week and a few minutes ago' she asked if it flipped up and confirmed it. Then she started wondering why the hell he go, and ask to look in her jeep if he had it the whole time, and she goes in my room and was like 'conniving asshole!'
Went back out in the main area and she wondering why it's taking him so long to get his ass back in the apartment. Me, wanting to get this over with, I opened the door and Pat decided to check the mail and I was like 'did you find the phone' of course his obvious answer is yea. And then mom started grilling him without her giving it away that I caught him, she sorta caught him when she was watching from my window.
I'm sure the whole world could feel the anger, I have to stay away form anger cause it gets to me...anyways! She yelling at him, and he finally told her he had it and ws making phone calls on it, and she was like if I get in trouble from my job cause of you, you're outta of here: 'no wonder your dad made you go to bed cause you can't get up yourself, staying up till 4am on the computer for no damn reason' ... 'did you call a sex line? no why would i do that? cause you be on the sex stuff on the computer that's why i put a block up!' ...
...and it went on and on. He tried to argue back, but uh....don't, don't do that. Lol. I remember her yelling about how he's always using people, and going behind people's back. Saying sorry isn't gonna cut it. I guess karma wanted some payback and used me to deliver it.
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| Oka so here's what's been going on so far:
- Told mom I'm going back to part time again, so I can work full time. Can't stay in someone else's house when they have their uptight rules where it will applies to me. They may be family, but it's the side I could careless about. The sooner I'm out the better. I'm a rebel in their eyes, and well, all I can say is...stop suffocating your son! Lol. Mom thinks I'll drop out of school. No, just part time so I can get my shit together.
- Was in MS last weekend with more other family members I could careless about, but I shot a gun. Felt empowering lol, but my luck... the damn shell would fly in my face, and that stuff is hot after you shoot.
- And lately I haven't been feeling myself. I feel fine..sometimes. Except when I get super hot for no reason and it's 73 degrees in the apartment, and I'm sleeping with the covers off...but no sign of sickness or a cold...nothing. I just feel weird....and I don't like it!
- Spending more time with mom. Going to Chicago and Adrian tagging along lol. We're gonna try and not get into trouble oka? Might chill at that beach if it's not dooms day out.
What's next: hair gets done tomorrow, doctor's appt Thurs...nuthin Fri. ^-^
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| Is it that easy to replace your family for another?
I've never tried it, but then again I've never been in a divorce either and met some other dude and neglect the kids I've had from the first to tend to his kids [or him in that matter],
Today was relatively mediocre.
Woke up and realized that the water was off in the entire building to fix something upstairs, who knows what. I just heard banging on the pipes and thinking 'man I could do that'. So, my cleaning day was ruined. I'll just have to do it when I get back from class in the morning.
Went in the kitchen and remembered there's nothing really there either. Had like a cup of cereal lol, not literally, but might as well been. I ran out of my 1% milk. After that I laid around and discovered channels I that I couldn't find when I first got back home. Like TBS, and there was somthing else...not sure oh well. Still miss my fucking HBO!
As I was saying! I laid around till I couldn't take it anymore. I needed food...and that was like around maybe 4PM. Then I just stayed at Adrian's. Snapped at my mom—which I really haven't seen much of.
Dude, don't make a fuss for me to come all the way back home and I see you like ....10 days out of the summer so far?? I'm a little bit upset highly upset. Think I'll give my dad a ring wednesday and see what the hell he's up to. He doesn't have a girlfriend....at least not that I know of.
I mean, there's not much me and mom can do around here together. We definitely don't like the same genre in movies, she's not much of a drinker, not into the same music much. Then again me and dad don't have.....well we like Batman!!! Lmao. I should buy him a dvd pack of the Batman in the 90s [cartoon one with that square ass face]. I digress badly....
So, I snapped on mom this afternoon.
'no i dont need you to come like as if you wanted to anyways.'
'its always the same. ure gonna stay down here cause its closer to work.'
Just...go grocery shopping, or give me the money to do it. Tired of the excuses [tired of your fucking man, and them kids [I suppose I can tolerate the older one, since he's like on his own and what not, but the little ones......................................]. You know sometimes I can get attached to certain kids, but they're just not it.
So now I'm like...'well if that was the case I could've kept my ass in TX and try to find a job'. I'm gonna be part time again cause I need to save up. I don't wanna stay with my uncle the whole time in school nor get in them expensive-for-no-reason-ass-dorms. I don't like sharing a room with someone. Damn.
Off to bed. Class in 6hrs. Doctor's appointment next week. For some reason I'm drained today.
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